Choosing a direction in life seems impossible for me at this period in time. I have no idea what I want to do, or even how I would go about doing it. It honestly feels like I’m paralyzed and I’m waiting for an epiphany to strike, but I also fear one may never come and all the time waiting will be wasted.
The best way to describe my feelings would be standing in front of a row of doors that are all locked – or seem to be. Maybe I’m afraid to even try and open one, for fear of missing out on another opportunity. It doesn’t help that my comfort zone simply reinforces my inability to commit by giving me the mindset, “If you don’t try, you can’t fail.” I know that frame of mind is toxic. I am afraid of becoming like those around me; full of potential, but too afraid or lazy to utilize it.
We are truly a generation of aimless romantics.
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Riding bikes today with Goin and maybe baking cupcakes with her. Hopefully all goes well with her bike as it needs a little work here and there, but it really is a beautiful machine. May decide to stop by H.O.C later to pick up a issue of cog and some decals for our bikes. I recently started lurking/browsing SUFU again but decided not to post on any W.A.Y.W.T.(what are you wearing today?) posts until I get my steelo just right. which means i’ll need to buy more button ups and a couple new pairs of jeans (I’ve been really hurting for some). So far no progress with Halloween costume whenever I stop by any thrift shoppes, and with October knocking at our door I’m getting weary as to whether or not I’ll even have one ready for this year. Also, new comic books came out yesterday, but I’ve yet to pick any up. 😦
So that’s me in a nutshell for now I’ll leave you with some bike porn.